I have found that a lot of transplant patients find pressure on themselves after their transplant to meet some kind of invisible standard. Specifically, an invisible standard of Awesomeness that they set upon themselves in order to be worthy of the transplant that they have received. It seems to me that this is of some kind of rite of passage to know and be comfortable with oneself after one’s transplant. It’s definitely a process of getting to know oneself again! It takes some people longer than others to reach this point.
However, for me personally, I have found that to be worthy of my gift I don’t have to climb any kind of mountains, run marathons, or invent some amazing product or cure. I don’t have to make my mark and become famous in the world for some grand gesture. I simply have to be me – living my life in a way that shows appreciation and gratefulness for what I have received. In doing so, I can also bring awareness for the others that are still waiting to receive that gift.
And along the way, I find the adventure in everyday life.
Yesterday, my niece and nephew discovered an actual mountain for me to climb! It was in the shape of a tube slide at the park. They wanted so badly for me to go in there with them! I wasn’t entirely sure at first, but eventually I followed them inside that red hole to climb it from the bottom to the top! In the video I was taking on my phone you can hear I was completely out of breath – this time, thought, it was not from a terrible end-stage lung disease, but from hilarious laughter! Pure fun and joy! It was a great moment, a great day. A Day to Remember.
And that to me is living worthy of the gift that I have received. Living with joy, laughter, purpose, appreciation, gratefulness, love.
Every single day. 🙂
|Aunt Mia, Uncle Leland, Biscuit and Smoochie|